Never Established

No, really. I just failed an exam. I haven’t got the results, but I can already tell what the result will be.

I have always been a ‘high achiever’. I’ve always cared, I’ve always understood the class, I’m able to retain information through being told it and other people go, “How do you remember that stuff?” And this class has just….blind-sided me. I went to all the classes, I understood it as I was being taught it, I remember random information and yet…I go into the exam, as prepared as I could be after the week I just had, and I may as well have been doing an exam for a subject I don’t take. I had literally no idea what was going on. I could do parts of each question but never complete it — in one question I couldn’t even do the first part, and therefore not the second, or third. I was just completely at a loss.

The lecturer caught me as I was leaving. “Why are you leaving so early?” he asks.

I shrug. “I couldn’t do anymore.”

“Are you happy with it?”

“Nope.” He wants me to come to consultation hours. “Don’t worry,” he says, “this is a practice for the final. It’s only 30% of your total grade.”

Yeap. Only 30%. Thank goodness, otherwise I would have been really stressed, right?